On Hate

So this entry isn't exactly going to be one of those "feel-good" pieces I generally like to share; however I do want to begin with a short disclaimer (even though I know this puts me at an immediate disadvantage to anyone who is reading critically). I am not all-knowing. I have a level of ignorance that skews my opinion. I am writing about my opinion, and one of Joshua's (my husband) favorite quotes is "opinion is the cheapest form of thought". While I don't ascribe to this philosophy, I do agree that uneducated opinion is cheap; however, our opinions are rooted in the pillars that hold us as human beings, and my pillars are love and responsibility.  Now, following this arduous introduction is this human's thoughts, educated from personal experience and study, from my lens of life.

When I was 15 years old I had no belief in a higher power... it seemed like a good idea, it made sense to be part of something bigger than myself, but it just didn't stick with me. I've said it dozens of times, as I share how I gained my faith in Christ, and I'll share it again; in the school I was in the only kids that really stood out from the others were the Mormons and the Muslims. What teenager doesn't like to stand out right?

Anyway, what drew me to find God was the the fact in my mind that religion was the only thing that really drew people together, uniting them to achieve something good, rather than simply uniting for survival against an enemy. I may have not fully grasped at that time the huge struggle in Europe back in the day when all of the reformations and creations of new churches ended in lots of bloodshed, but it was my view that God's work was, and the people who did God's work, were generally good. I went to many different churches and church services, and studied in depth even more religions. Eventually, many of my friends and acquaintances know, I not only joined a church, but I joined the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. The truth I was taught struck a chord with my idea of love, and my understanding of covenants, like baptism, satisfied my idea of what would help me take responsibility for my life.

It wasn't until college that I recognized the vast hypocrisy in my church, from the members to some leaders. This didn't change however,  the truth I was taught, the truth I believe with all of my everything that God is love, and I have a responsibility to share that. This truth: God loves me, carried me into the mission field where I taught and conversed with many, many people; most of whom already believed my pillar of truth, that God loves his children; it was only the details that were different.

And this is where the hate comes in. In my experience hate is bred by ignorance and misunderstandings. Willful ignorance or otherwise I met individuals who professed an unyielding devotion to God and Christ yet hated all of who I was because of the little black name tag I wore, and a message of truth I had to share, not to force, but to share. And as I communed with people on all ends of the spectrum, from many different religions including some of my peers who tried more forcing than sharing, I noticed that the negative people projected their will as God's more often than not... but the humble ones, the preached love... missionaries and non-missionaries alike.

It's easier to be in survival mode in a regular situation rather than a progressive mode. Running on adrenaline against a perceived threat is more motivating than just trying to become better in a static environment. This is why religion has been around so long, it is true, and there is that dichotomy between good and evil, God and Satan, that is perpetuated in our culture from comic books to war.

I guess my point of this is that people use different vehicles to move their opinions around, using belief systems as platforms for words and actions. There is not one religion I have ever studied that teaches hate. While, they teach absolute truth about what is right and wrong, they teach love, and that it is not us mere mortals who are in charge, but Deity. I personally find it abhorrent that individuals pervert religion to push hate, and justify harm to others who have different values, cultures, and lifestyles.

In the world we live in today people are largely stepping away from God because of this perversion of truth. Maybe even they are stepping away from the mere belief that others should be loved and respected because those that are supposed to stand for this love are imperfect and fall short (purposefully and accidentally) I don't understand why this hatred and violence has been around for so long, and I didn't see it before... but I do know that even though I don't see religion as bringing people together for good anymore; truth and hope do bring people together for good. Life brings us together, only it is sometimes unable to be put into perspective after a loss of life.

This is why America came together after 9/11, after multiple school shootings, and after the most recent desecration of human life in Orlando. We know because of our humanity that even though our loved ones can't come back from the dead, that there can be healing in the hearts of those whom they have left behind. There is hope that those who have passed are living in a better place, I know this to be true, and in a way I believe there is more gratitude for the lives of those who are now gone.

Violence comes in many forms, but it starts with a misunderstanding that someone either is not loved, or does not deserve to be loved. Terrorism happens on a scale from emotional abuse to straight up mass murder, but in any level of this abuse to humanity, hate is the root. There is nothing explicitly empirical about it, and the sooner we consistently come together in love, the faster we will be able to heal mankind as a whole.

...yeah it sounds like a cheesy hippy thing to say, but it's true, and I personally would like to hang onto that hope that we may be able to seek an understanding of our brothers and sisters, so that we may act in proactive kindness rather than defensive hate. Maybe do a little more coexisting and less judging.

Sometimes Unaware of Social Appropriateness or Protocol: Personality Theory

     So, sleep has been evading me.. which I don't think is unusual around this time of the semester... but with all the excitement in my life, I don't think I'll be sleeping normally for awhile. :P
     I feel like I have a lot to share about my life, and that this whole blogging-as-an-online journal thing is pretty sweet, especially for me because I think everyone's individuality is awesome and SHOULD be shared. :P And I feel like a blog helps capture that because someone's actually gotta put some thought into what they're writing, instead of just like "checking in" on FB or twitter.
     ...but yeah, anyway. I really feel like I should've posted something super exciting about my mission call by now, and the awesomeness that is now, and also up ahead :P But I'm still not exactly sure how I feel about everything yet I guess... I mean in addition to the excitement... and I don't think I'd be able to articulate it in the best way at this point anyway... but yeah. So I owe a few blogs, about Christmas, Dad's surgery, my 21st birthday... lots of that kray.
     For now though. Personality theory. I'm an ENFJ/ENFP... definitely more Judging than Perceiving (meaning I need a bit more order than chaos... I like to call it designated unstructured time :P... which is contradictory... not unlike my color personality which is blue-red) :P But I wanted to take a second and word vomit/reflect on one of the 'weaknesses' of this personality type --> "Sometimes unaware of social appropriateness or protocol" Now I laughed out loud when this was read to me, because I am a little bit on the uncouth side of the social appropriateness scale. Part of me LOVES it, I mean, lezbihonest. haha, but at the same time I feel like it's that part of me that has gotten me into a bit of trouble/ kept me from acting more my age. :P
     And sometimes I wonder... dang, how am I going to be a good adult? I mean, I've been sober for a decent amount of time now; and since I don't drink or do drugs... so I can't blame some of my crazy on substance use. And, I know I'm pretty dang mature, because I have a deep desire to commit to the few things in life I know to be true. Also I'm a nurture-er at heart, and I think that being able to take care of people in a non-co-dependent way is a mark of maturity. So there is a lot of that. But I just wonder sometimes... since a lot of social behavior is learned, and since I grew up in a pretty normal white-upper-middle-class-classic-broken-mended-mixed-family-American home; how am I not more aware of social appropriateness/ more inclined to be more in this category?
     It is a flaw of mine to over-think a thing or two, but  I mean, what can I say? If I'm gonna be a missionary for a year and a half, and then try and be a therapist who inspires kids who have been labeled "anti-social" or "substance abusers" shouldn't I be a little more orthodox? I mean sure there's all kinds of people in the world, but I'm already treading on grounds that aren't exactly docile--in the mission field I'm already weird because I'm LDS; and in the psych field I'm weird because of the adult-teen relationship tension--so I mean, that's enough going against me already right? Can I really afford to be socially inappropriate?
     Hm. Well, I guess we'll find out. Thankfully, I do have a sense of decorum. I interview like a boss, and so far my employers have still liked me when my personality has shown through, so that's comforting. Hopefully... hopefully one day, I'll find myself a bit more secure about this particular trait in myself, but I think until then, I can laugh about how I care about social acceptability towards my tendency to be socially un-accepted-ness :P
     And with that, I believe it is time to turn the beat around and get my eyelids some sleep.

God is great, life is good, and people are crazy! :D

p.s. this website (http://www.personalitypage.com/html/ENFJ_rel.html) is a pretty accurate description of the general personality types. :)

Pretty Much Perfect :)

     So this is how I pictured college when I was in high school... Trees turning colors, wearing a hoodie (or beanie) a little overcast, and me with a smile on my face... Okay, and there was a espresso machine, boyfriend, and grad school plan too, but life takes its turns :P
     Today was a wonderful day, I woke up at 7:06 and thought "Oh CRAP, I have a meeting at 8!" ... so classic sleeping in thang right. But I still somehow managed to get ready, look semi-presentable, have roomie prayer and head out the door in time to get to my meeting. And on my way up to campus, I ran into some wardies and we chatted for awhile, I commented on how I felt like I was lookin' like a homeless bum (I decided that I'm just going to go through my 5-pack of white v-necks this week... so I'm not like lookin super fly or anything...) but one of the guys said "well, you look like a freshly showered bum, if you're really trying to pull off the homeless look."
     So I finally make it to my meeting, after some good conversation, and domination of the RB hill... well it generally dominates me, but whateves. I get to the meeting, and I'm currently assisting with 2 research projects, one of which I'm organizing the collaborative effort, and the second of which I'm mainly doing data entry. But I realize... "Wow, I've learned a LOT of stuff just from doing things, not necessarily from a textbook or in the classroom..." I've picked up some sweet skills, like ORGANIZING! I've got some sweet organizational skills... I'm also good at getting people together, making spreadsheets efficient, and setting up a project or something without taking it over... I can take direction and help it become the awesomeness it was meant for! :D Anyways, it was cool coming to that realization, and coming to terms with the nerdy research side of me that wants to find findings, write up lit reviews, and see if seemingly meaningless digits can show profound patterns.
     The day just gets better as I stroll outside looking for a nice place to read my scriptures, and I just fell in LOVE with the clouds! The weather was PERFECT today! Eventually I settle into a bench at the JSB, read, and then take a little nap before one of the best devotionals I've ever heard in my LIFE! I got to enjoy it with good friends too, which is always a plus! One of them is just so sweet, it's like I'm the only person in the world when she's talking to me :P I wonder sometimes how it's even possible to just give ALL of yourself to people, even though relationships aren't really going to last that long... I mean I'm in college right... but it hit me today, again, that it's because our time is limited that we need to invest ALL we have into others, and try to do our best to succeed in life.
     The devotional today was about happiness and staying positive, and it was truly amazing :)
     Two classes, work, homework, and a little bit of reading later it's 6pm and I head home to do some laundry, eat a bit, write a couple missionaries, and get ready to run. I accomplished ALL of that PLUS folding my clothes! And I was pretty proud of myself for going 3.25 miles in just over 30 min :) After said fun, I was able to have some awesome conversation with the roomies, and it was fun/interesting/nerdy for me to go on a tangent about mental health stuff, and talk about the hospital I volunteered at for the past two years. One of my roomies is a psych major too, so it was fun to talk about abnormal psychology and behaviors, and just the unique undergraduate experience we get to have/our limited, yet interesting, and special perspective on the world.
     Anyway, through and through it was pretty much a perfect day. Life isn't what I've planned it to be, but I am doing what I love, I'm loving what I do, and I'm happy. Heavenly Father's hand is clearly blessing my life, and I am so blessed to have just another day. :)

And I'm seriously looking forward to the next one, and the one after that, and the one after that! :) ...even though I do have tests this week... God is great, life is good, and people are crazy!


    

Play With a Purpose :)

Okay, so this post has been a long time coming... Over spring semester my SFL 100 professor said something that struck me:
"You are young, you have to play! But you need to help others too, play with a purpose!"

He was speaking of our choices of study abroad programs, summer plans, etc. so that we may be able to help those around us, and just generally be productive members of society. And lately this (below) has been my life.

I'm in a philosophy class, and in preparation for a quiz that I very well might completely fail I've been creating a study guide, going over notes... like ACTUAL studying stuff! Kray. I know. :P

But, a two things have stuck out to me. One was The Cambridge Platonists' idea of innate ideas. They rejected Cartesian beliefs of Tabula Rasa and substituted it for the idea that your mind is a closed book, which your senses merely open, there are many innate things just part of you innately. The second thing that has stuck out to me is the big debate over whether or not God exists... which, I'm sure, will continue until the End actually comes. :P

And the third thing that has spawned this musing of thoughts is from a recent-ish General Conference talk. Elder D. Todd Christofferson said this (actually quoting Elder Evans): "'Life offers you two precious gifts --one is time, the other freedom of choice, the freedom to buy with your time what you will. You are free to exchange your allotment of time for thrills. You may trade it for base desires. you may invest it in greed.... Yours is the freedom to choose. But these are no bargains, for in them you find no lasting satisfaction. Every day, every hour, every minute of your span of mortal years must sometime be accounted for. And it is in this life that you walk by faith and prove yourself able to choose good over evil, right over wrong, enduring happiness over mere amusement. And your eternal reward will be according to your choosing.'"

Time is so interesting to me. I feel like everything I'm doing is helping me to grow towards what I want to become, and that I'm playing with a purpose, learning leadership skills, and picking up awesome random nuggets of AWESOME (like organizational skills... I'm organizing a team of researchers as part of my job in the Counseling Center right now, and the reason I can have the confidence to perform well with this responsibility is because I've DONE it!)... so yeah anyways, idk...

I still sometimes wonder if I've squandered some of my youth by doing to much...

or if I've just done well preparing for the future...

In either case, I do know that I'm walking by faith.

2 Cor 5:7


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Elder Christofferson's Talk:  https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2010/10/reflections-on-a-consecrated-life?lang=eng&query=reflections+consecrated+life

Look Up! :D

      In a recent conference talk Elder Carl B. Cook of the Seventy said this after describing an encounter he had with President Monson in an elevator: "I was burdened and my head was down. As the prophet spoke, I looked to him. He redirected my focus to look up to God, where I could be healed and strengthened through Christ's Atonement. That is what prophets do for us. They lead us to God."
    Revelation given to the prophet Joseph Smith and Oliver Cowdery in the 6th section of the Doctrine and Covenants states:
"33 Fear not to do good, my sons, for whatsoever ye sow, that shall ye also reap; therefore, if ye sow good ye shall also reap good for your reward.
34 Therefore, fear not, little flock; do good; let earth and hell combine against you, for if ye are built upon my rock, they cannot prevail.
35 Behold I do not condemn you; go your ways and sin no more; perform with soberness the work which I have commanded you.
36 Look unto me in every though; doubt not, fear not.
37 Behold the wounds which pierced by side, and also the prints of the nails in my hands and feet; be faithful, keep my commandments, and ye shall inherit the kingdom of heaven. Amen."

     I am so grateful to be able to say that I have faith in God, my Heavenly Father, who strengthens me in everything I do. I'm grateful that I can look up for guidance, that I have a perfect example to emulate my motivations after, and that I have no reason to fear because of the rock upon which I am built. I love my Savior, I love my Father in Heaven, and I'm grateful for the confidence that I have been blessed with. I know that I am not perfect, but I also know how to strive for perfection. I know I'm better off at the bottom of the mountain, bruised form a fall, looking up toward the peak, than 3 meters from the summit contemplating turning around. I know the hope that comes with a will to do good. I know the healing power of Jesus Christ's Atonement, I have experienced it first hand. And, I know that change is a process to be taken one step, one moment, one breath at a time.

God is great, life is good, and people are crazy! :)

Spring Time! :D

Okay, so the title should be "spring term", but whatevskis! It's been super great b/c my schedule is chill, I'm training for the MUDDER, taking advantage of the beautiful hiking in UT, and having fun w/ my roomies!

I love not having to work so much (even though the paycheck isn't super exciting), but I'm getting to spend more time doing research, volunteering at the Utah State Hospital, going to the temple, working with my substance abuse students, and actually being a good student! 

Isn't it beautiful?? :)

Yeah, we conquered that thang! (...also I look super conceited)

"It's not the gospel that's hard, it's life that's hard"

Sometimes I wish my brain looked a little more like this:

And a little less like this: 

... ignoring the fact that that is indeed an album cover, my brain feels like a riot... like many riots... happening all at the same time... and that red RIOT! ... yeah 

It just feels like life is too loud sometimes, for the good things to get in yah know?

My mind wanders off when I don't sleep...

There's this song by The Rocket Summer called: Do You Feel and one of the lines is:
"I guess my mind wanders off from time to time,
Sometimes I convince myself that all is fine
In the world, it's not mine, why should I have to try
To fix things I didn't create or contrive?"

The world really does think like this sometimes huh? There's so much business going on that the big problems seem insurmountable.

Edmund Burke once said: "All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing."

The next stanza in the song says:
"Do you feel the weight of the world singin' sorrow?
Or to you is it just not real?
'Cause I got my own things.
Yeah we all have our things, I guess."

Dang. Makes you think huh?

I really love this song mainly because of that, through a bunch of my classes from psych to public health to sociology to history, there's an idea of social responsibility that we all have for eachother simply as human beings. Even Kohlberg's stages of morality put universal principals/social responsibility as the highest level of achievement.

I want to change the world. I want everyone to change the world. I believe we can all change the world. :)


God is great, life is good, and people are crazy!
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Animal Print Pants Outta Control!!

So, it's Pi DAY! and I also wore zebra pants today, and spring is coming! There is so much to be thankful for!

Classes are winding down, and the tidal wave of midterms is finally subsiding, but I still feel so behind in school! (probably because I am, but it's all good, b/c things are gonna work out, and when I get my mind goin' towards something, ima get that janx DID!)

But I just wanted to say happy PI DAY, and recommend that everyone wear zebra pants, it's fantastic, also, I don't recommend that anyone do drugs, like I tell my class: Stay sober!


Okay, that's all, except there's only 7 MONTHS til' the TOUGH MUDDER!
and like 5.5 til' them mission papers can get it! :D

God is great, life is good, people are crazy!
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Sometimes...

... spending 16 hours on campus is tiring.
... taking a shower is better than an hour of sleep.
... vaccuming while the space heater is on is a bad idea.
... studying for finals is overrated.
... feeling tired and accomplished are the same thing.
... drying your hair with a space heater while reading by its glowing orange light is relaxing
... nostalgia is happy-making
... not using a recepie when you cook = awesomeness
... it doesn't

and these are just a few lessons I've learned from the past couple of weeks :)

God is great, life is good, people are crazy!
The church is true!
(265 DAYS!!)
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Fantastical Daze

So I'm really excited for a few reasons:

     1) I'm having a Black and White PARTY on FRIDAY NIGHT (and I made sick-nasty AWESOME flyers :D)

     2) I'm adding Philosophy and English as minors!

     3) Intramural basketball season starts in two days!

     4) I'm LOVING MY CLASSES 

     5) I'm LOVING MY ROOMIESSS

     6) I love college :)

     7) Elder Anderson spoke today at devotional, and it was fantastic

     8) Life is hard but its way enjoyable.

Anyway yeah, good things are happening. I wanted to also share a bit of my ENGL 220 class with everyone (we're writing memoir pieces... so I'm trying to make my dull life seem interesting) and here is a short, complete bit that I'm actually pretty proud of... it's one of my only memories of childhood that are complete. Enjoy:

I was so excited to have a new chessboard! But concern was terribly concerned about three moves into the fifth game I’ve ever played. It was against my dad, I knew I couldn’t win, and yet I was bound and determined to try... one day, with practice, one day I’ll get the best of him.
Feeling excited for the journey between beginning and my unavoidable defeat, I pushed away the yearning of a few too many beverages from dinner to be released.
Five moves later. Complete concentration.
Five more moves later... oh crap!
“Uhm dad, I’ve gotta go to the bathroom.” I barely make it down the hall, and into the bathroom when while I’m pulling down my pants I pee all over myself. Crap. Crap. Crap. Not only am I losing this chess game, but there is no reason for me to sneak upstairs to change my pants and return to it!
A couple of minutes later my dad calls to me “Is everything okay?”
“Actually... I wet my pants...”

... and this is what I do with my life... oh yeah, and I study and stuff too... okay, I study A LOT, but whaterrr, I love it! :P

God is great, life is good and people are crazy!

The Church is True

<3 Heather

p.s. only 321 days until I can start my mission papers!!!

Slowing Down

So it's a Saturday afternoon, and I'm taking the day kind of slow, especially since I was out so late last night. But right now is a good time to calm it down, prioritize and put things into perspective. They say that what matters most to you is reflected in how you spend your time. So after watching this I'd invite everyone to think about how they've been spending their time, and actually experiencing life.

Here's some awesome quotes :D

"If life and its rushed pace and many stresses have made it difficult for you to feel like rejoicing, then perhaps now is a good time to refocus on what matters most."
     - President Deiter F. Uctdorf  "Of Things That Matter Most" Oct. 2010 General Conference

"Everybody dies, but not everybody lives."
     - Nicki Minaj "Moment 4 Life"

First Day of School MOM!

Wowwww, I just realized I haven't posted anything since before I went on vacation this summer!!

I just had my first day of school, and I woke up soooo early to wait in line for intramurals, but it paid off b/c I was second in line right behind my crazy awesome roommate Laura, I'll tell you, there is nothing like sprinting down the Richards Building hallway at 5:30 in the morning to beat a bunch of hard-core intramuralers to get a BEGINNERS BRACKET basketball team hahahahha.

But after that I had 4 of my 5 classes today, Developmental Psychology: Adolescence, Intro to Social Psychology, Personal Writing and Juvenile Delinquency. It's kindof awesome being in sweet classes that I am actually seriously interested in! And its kindof awesome that I'll actually be doing some meaningful writing this semester. (However, it's going to be like ALOT of writing, but I need the practice, and it will be academic and personal writing soooooooo, it will be most excellent!) Also, I'm studying like EVERYTHING that has to do with my future career plans... well, everything is kinda geared towards it, so I'm excited... I'm the only Psychology major in my Delinquency class (its a sociology class), and I think its interesting and awesome how ALL of my classes are relating even though they are taking different approaches to different, yet similar subjects. People are awesome!!

I learned today some sociology theory: biographies = the history of individuals' lives
                                                                history = recording of the life of a society
                                      SOCIOLOGY (should) = the relationship between biographies and histories

cool eh?? [this is how all of my classes relate! English=>personal history=>biographies (or memoirs) + history => sociology => juvenile delinquency class (which I'll be doing some personal reflecting in for a couple assignments) => study of juveniles => adolescents => Developmental Psych: Adolescents => how nature and nurture effect adolescent growth;  nurture effecting growth => Intro to Social Psych! anyway yeah, I'm thinking of investing in some C. Wright Mills, he gave a good quote from a book he wrote on sociological imagination:

"...the individual can understand his own experience and gauge his own fate only by locating himself within his period, that he can know his own choices in life only by becoming aware of those of all individuals in his circumstances."

I'm really looking forward to this semester for realsiez!

and I have one more new class on Thursday which is NEW TESTAMENT! I'm way excited to like legit study the gospels more, and get to know my Savior a little better by studying His life and teachings and most especially His example. :)

God is great, life is good, people are crazy :)
The Church is True!!

<3Heather

I'm way kray!

KRAY: CRAZY!

Thank you Pono Santos for the inspiration for the title of this blog :P (lets just say that insanely impulsive frisbee defense playing, writing 21 page papers, and general quirkyness have merited a special place in this amazing woman's heart, and I feel really unique and lucky to be thurrr... also I'm pretty sure I get her to say "Imma cut you" more than many people in the world could :P :D :P)


It's kinda late... considering I have work in a few hours, but I'm super wired, and like so many things are going on in my head right about now... Let us list... and maybe elaborate on a few?
1)   I love frisbee... we played today, it was fantastic (I'm getting better at playing offense! but don't worry, I'm   staying true to my defensive roots!!! :P)
2)  I started a countdown on my phone last week counting down the days until Monday August 27th 2012 (when I can turn in my mission paperssss! There are currently 440 days left until I can submit those babies, and thats 63 weeks minus one day! I was thinking first about 440 things I want to do before I turn in my papers... and then was like Woahhh snap girl, that is kinda a lot of janx to do! so then I decided to go with 63, that involves memorizing (and internalizing) some hymns, scriptures, and such as, reading a few books, becoming an EFY counselor, attaining a certain number of volunteer hours at the Utah State Hospital, etc.... I don't think I quite made it to 63, but dang, I've got a lot of plans!
3)  I've found that in like ALLL of the craziness life's been blessing me with, that something is like missing kind of... I'm not sure how to explain it, but its like this teenage angst almost, like I'm missing something that I can't explain. Last time I realized I was missing something it was like... after I had it in my life for a bit; like I had electricity and light bulbs, but someone had to give me a light switch, and then I had to find the courage to use it, and I didn't realize until after I'd turned on the lights that I'd been chilling in the dark.... It's like that, except I feel like I'm kinda in that "in the dark" place, even though I know how to (and am successfully) using my light switch... maybe after that missing thing comes into my life I'll figure out a less nebulous metaphor?
4)   I've been thinking about the bakery a LOT, prolly cuz I'm there 6 days a week, and making all the rice krispies for BYU is a bit taxing on the brain... anyway I realized that as much as I love my job (like I do love what I do, I mean management isn't always the best, but like, I LOVE making stuff, and that's kinda what counts when all the fluff in life is boiled out... anyway, yeah) I was thinking about that, and how in a couple years (most likely after the mish, but maybe before?) I'm going to be working at a place that I'm going to LOVE even more, like there are going to be so many opportunities as I'm learning more in school, and growing further and further away from my birth date.... kray huh?

yeah, so midnight ramblings... (summary of thoughts?:)
I'm going to be on a cruise in a couple of days!!
Spring Term is OVERRRRRR (almost)
I have the most AMAZING friends in the world.
I'm the luckiest person I've ever had the chance to meet.
I love writing... and writing small if it is on paper
Hearts rock the world
Baking is the BEST
oh yeah
and
I'm
WAY KRAY!

:D God is great, life is good and people are kray (in the best possible way!)

The Church is True!
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