Humble Pie: Fall 2012

So I thought my semester would be looking a little more like this:

21-ish credits

3 jobs

2 intramurals

and my 2-ish year plan would look a little bit like this:

Sept-Dec 2012: School

January 2013: Mission Papers

March-ish 2013 to September-ish 2014: Serve a mission

September-ish 2014-April 2015: Apply to graduate school and finish up college

 and my graduation diploma would look a little more like this:

Heather Ann Lagrosa:

Psychology BS

Family Life Minor

English Minor

But at some point during this crazy kray-kray summer I've learned a little bit more about how I can listen to the Lord, and I've had more opportunities to act upon the promptings of the Spirit. I got to experience a different kind of goodness and happiness, because I desired to align my will with the Lord's. However, when school plans were coming back around, I kindof forgot a little bit about what I learned this summer... luckily though, for me, I have some great influences in my life who have reminded me of Who my blessings come from in the moments that I seem to forget, so I got my head on track a little bit, and put my heart and mind into prayer. I wish I could say that I recieved an answer immediately and am 100% happy and pleased with my new plan, but it took some time. Granted it is only the 2nd day of school, but I've been pondering for awhile (for those of you who don't know my OCD tendencies for planning/numbers/colorcoding/scheduling by some of my posts... well, I spend a great deal of time making plans and considering options... thats why I find time to make myself more busy! :P)... and anyway, I've been feeling peaceful about cutting back even if it is a little bit.

So now my plans look like this:

Fall 2012:

18 credits (2 audited, 3 online)

3 jobs

2 intramurals

2ish year plan:

September 2012 -April 2013: get my undergraduate

January 2012: turn in my mission papers

April-ish 2013- October-ish 2014: Serve a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints

October-ish 2013- January 2014: Apply to graduate school and find some work :)

and my diploma:

Heather Ann Lagrosa

Bachelor of Science in Psychology

Minor in Family Life

      I want more than anything in the world right now to just go an serve a mission, but I know that I won't be able to do my best without listening to what Heavenly Father wants me to do. As I prepare to give 100% of my time to Him for a short 18 months, I need to give 100% of my life to Him. I know I can be a missionary for my Father in Heaven without a black nametag. I know that when Sister Beck said this in her April 2010 General Conference address: "The ability to qualify for, receive, and act on personal revelation is the single most important skill that can be acquired in this life", she was truly inspired. It's one thing to hear something and know it is ture, it is entirely another to let that truth change you, and transform you into a better person. 

     I am grateful that I know Who my strength comes from, and that I can talk with my Heavenly Father whenever I want... He always listens. I love the Lord, and I know with all of my heart that I am loved by Him. In Shakespear's Twelfth Night that says: "Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness and some have greatness thrust upon them". There is another quote that states: 

     "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. it is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. your playing a small doesn't serve the world. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."  -- Marianne Williamson in Return to Love

We all have greatness inside of us... now just because eveyone has greatness, doesn't mean that everyone is great. The choice to become is an individual one that has to be made with true intent.

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"Love sought is good, but giv'n unsought is better"